So we are going to switch it up some and talk about me. I know, I know not what you all want, but here it goes lol. So I have always known that I was a bratty sub. Most of that is just because in general of how I am, but over the last few months I have found more traits of other kinds of subs in me, so I want to touch on each one.
So let’s start out at the base. My base sub type is being a brat. Being a brat is a lot more then just trying to get my Dom mad or push his buttons. Oddly I never thought of it in a certain way till I saw a video on TikTok. It talked about how brats will push the limits to see how the Dom reacts to small stuff cause if they react to a small problem in a big way then they know how to protect themselves emotionally. I never thought of it that way, but I see it now. Coming from a past that has abuse in it I can definitely see me being a brat and pushing limits as a way of seeing how you react to me. Also on the other side being a brat can be fun. Who doesn’t like a little banter every once in awhile? I used to brat for funishments, but since Daddy has changed the funishments I actually get punishments instead now. Honestly it doesn’t stop me that often. I have noticed since I first started seeing Daddy my bratting has became a lot less since I had started feeling more secure in our relationship. Now I find my bratty side can bring out the primal side in Daddy.
At first I didn’t think I was a service sub at all, but the more I am with Daddy the more I see it. Reminding him to take his meds was the first thing that I really did for him. Like he would ask me for a drink or whatever, but I never really looked at that as a service sub trait. I look at that as something you do for your significant other. I don’t live with Daddy so some of the things are more of a want to do for him then an act that I can do right now. I have cooked for Daddy before. I was terrified I was gonna mess it up, but it blew his mind. I would love to cook, do dishes, clean, and do laundry for Daddy, but with the current situation I know I can’t, but I will be able to eventually and when I am able to it will feel good. The other way that I feel more of a service sub is when I please him. I don’t know how to really explain it, but when he lets me please him it makes me feel good and not in a sexual way either. Something deep inside me feels relieved and that I satisfied my need to take care of him.
So the next side of me is being a sexual sub. Some of this was covered when I was talking about being a service sub and pleasing him, but this has different areas within it. So for pleasing him when we are making out and he just simply says go do your job OMG hottest thing ever! This fills that service sub, but also sexual sub because he is making the choice not me. Another time is when we are doing impact play and he will tell me what to do or when to get on my knees on the bed, etc. He is taking control over me which I like especially if I am in sub space where it seems my brain doesn’t work the way it should. Lastly there is primal play. Primal play is very different as it falls into me being a brat and not doing what I am told and resisting him, but it also falls into sexual sub also. Primal play is something I have talked about in other blogs I have posted so I won’t go into much detail here. Ultimately these reason I feel it fits sexual sub is because ultimately I am his to play with and after the fun in resisting he gets to claim me as his.
Lastly the DDLG sub. This is slightly different for us cause the little girl part doesn’t fit me as far as age regression and stuff like that, but Daddy still takes care of me. So in some ways I feel this is part of me. Daddy has helped me in many ways. He helped me figure out the bus system so I didn’t have to walk to work, helped me win at stuffy at the State Fair (now I have a snuggle buddy when he isn’t here), takes me to the store if I need to when he is up here, etc. Mentally and emotionally he helps me when I need him to (I do the same for him also) and has helped me with applications and even helped me set up a bank account. So even though I don’t do the age regression I still feel like this is still a valid sub type for me.
Wow it is interesting to sit back and look at everything all at once. I never realized I fit into all these different sub types until I got with Daddy. He really has brought out a lot and has helped me be me and even helped me become a better version of me.
Well until next time!
Love,
💋Kitten🐈⬛
